Shit went down with my roommate, on top of being unemployed, computer-less and without a car.
Because of all of this, instead of spending the summer in San Francisco, I am back in Lynnwood, Washington indefinitely. The cosigner for my school loans fell through, so I need to find another means to get back down to California.
It's very depressing, and a huge blow to my ego to be back. I had a lot of pride being down in San Francisco. I felt proactive. Now that I'm back, however, I'm going to use this time to get as much work in as possible in regard to filmmaking.
I'm working on two scripts, and I'm committed to finishing both within the year. I'm going to use what resources I have--the library, Netflix, etc.--to continue educating myself. The way I see it, I'm a permanent student of film and I need to be more devoted now more than ever.
Regardless of how shitty the circumstances of me coming back are, it's good to see some familiar faces. I lucked out on getting a job at the movie theater with the managers I used to work with. Now, I just need to get some money.
"A person should set his goals as early as he can and devote all his energy and talent to getting there. With enough effort, he may achieve it. Or he may find something that is even more rewarding. But in the end, no matter what the outcome, he will know he has been alive."
- Walt Disney
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you're going to get through this Trev. I'm rooting for you, and I'm here when you need me. You probably wont see this for another six months, but I don't think you realize how much I miss you. You came back into my life after I had gotten over everything, and you needed me, and I was happy to be there for you.. but you left things open between us .. and now I'm left here to think about it day after day, what it meant and hoping to be a bigger part of your life when you return.
I often regret saying things and they usually never help, but that's me.. painfully honest and unwilling to keep my feelings to myself. haha.
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